So tomorrow, January 23rd, 2018, I’m going in for a breast reduction. Because size Hs on top of scoliosis does not equal painless living. But, uh. Surgery. So hopefully, after tomorrow, I’ll start improving in a permanent manner. In any case, please send me good wishes or prayers or whatever it is you do. Good vibes. Yeah. Those.
If I were to make a blog or website for the scope of my impatience, I think it’d look disturbingly like a circus. Just so you know.
Imma change shit up here shortly.
So. On Friday, I lost the job I’ve had for nearly a year now. I would like to mention I’m particularly bummed about this since it was my first steady, regularly paying job since I worked at a pizza place in Tyler, Texas when I was roughly 16 years old. … that was 10 years ago. Continue reading
Will someone obsess with me!? I want to talk about Seiju’s magical hair and Usaki’s inability to get the point!!!!!
Holy crap, my blog posts have been hella scarce lately. I’m so sorry for that, truly I am. Mostly, it’s because I’ve been very busy with work and life and the living thereof. I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching, and a lot of healing in the mind and the heart.
You see, up until very recently, I’ve been completely content to let myself be pushed around. And if I’m being totally honest here, it’s really my own fault. In a way, I was being selfish. I didn’t want to give up that image of myself, that martyr I thought I was. But truthfully, I was just harming myself and the ones around me. I wasn’t making things better or helping anyone, really.
So, I’m moving on. I’m building a better future. I’m trying my best every day to see things as they are, but brighter. I can’t let myself fall into that funk again, because it was doing no one any good.
Here’s to hoping.
I just wanted to put a brief note out there. I understand fully that it’s small consolation and probably no help at all. But guys, no matter what you’re going through, no matter how scared the day’s politics and chaos makes you, you are not alone. I love you. I don’t know you, but I love you, and I’m here if you ever need someone to talk to. You know how to email me. All I ask is you are there for someone else in turn, because no one wants to be left in the dark.